Embody Truth

Embody Truth

We’ve all been there; a little out of integrity here, or there.  And for whatever reason, we justify it. And always, and I mean always, the justification is based on some illusion we’ve created that makes no sense to our soul, but we believe it anyway.  We try and make something up that will make our ego feel better. 

But somewhere in our body, at some point in our life, we’ve ignored the message.

Deep Vulnerability

Deep Vulnerability

Not just vulnerable ... but deeply vulnerable. 

I’ve been reflecting a lot already and we’re only 13 days into this Venus Retrograde. A long way to go in my opinion – a lot deeper we can travel.

Venus Retrograde is, in my humble opinion, one of the most powerful times to regroup, realign and dive deeper into the heart than we think is possible. She’s all about relationships, intimate relationships; the ones we hold most dear – the ones that offer so much love, joy, angst, and reflection.  She bears all so we can feel all.

And while she’s in retrograde we’ve experienced a Full Moon Virgo, a conjunction of the Sun, Mercury and Chiron with a drive by of Neptune, all in Pisces. Oh and Saturn just happens to be resting in Sagittarius squaring that conjunction with the Moon. Oh and, you know … Uranus is opposite Jupiter .. shaking things up just a bit. 

What does this mean? 

Deep vulnerability. With some breakdowns to breakthrough. With a new plan for truthful structure.  Deep healing for yourself and maybe even the ancestors before you, and the children after you. 

It could equate to a shift storm for some of us …

...yes, a shift storm.

You know … a bit of a shake down in order to find a new center of ourselves. 

Overall it means that we have the opportunity right now to heal our oldest wounds to date.  But we have to travel deep to do that.  We have to drop our masks, our shields, and our weapons to achieve that.  We have to dive deeper than ever before so we can see beyond any illusion we’ve told ourselves; any story that has kept us safe or comfortable. 

We must go all the way through the seven gates to get to the Underworld of our own story.  We must bear all, admit all, lay down our defenses, and get real.  We must look into the eyes of another and tell the truth.  We must feel into our own hearts and hear it’s yearning for liberation. 

And that’s not always comfortable is it?  It’s so much easier to coast along on the surface.  It’s so much easier to keep deep feelings to ourselves … so much safer.  Deep vulnerability may bring an unexpected outcome … it usually does actually.  And it may not be what we want to hear, or feel or experience. 

But if we are deeply vulnerable we must be ready for truth.  In all our rawness we have to be unattached to the outcome and that is challenging as well.

It’s like coming out of Ustrasana and folding right in Child’s Pose. No … no can do, keep that heart up and feel the pulse of it all.

Right now the old saying, “the truth will set you free” is more revealing and most appropriate than ever.  It carries resonance with the astrological orchestra we are experiencing as we speak.

What are we afraid of anyway?  When we reveal ourselves – what are we afraid of?  What is it? Because from what I’ve experienced in being vulnerable, the deeper I go, the more I admit, the more I expose, the more I feel, the more I expand, the more I love.

Here’s what I think …

I think that the heart is the most resilient organ in the body. It pumps blood to every crevasse of our being.  It energetically holds every story ever written about us from even before we were born. It knows everything, it holds everything, and it wants nothing more than to connect. 

And yet we shield it, we protect it, we deny it, we shut it down.  We put everything before it; why?

Because it’s been broken? 

The heart can’t break.  When it feels like it’s breaking ... it’s actually breaking apart in order to make more space for love.  It falls apart to put itself together so it is bigger and more illuminated.  It’s past resentments and grief only serve to create a larger container for a bigger capacity to love deeper, stronger and fuller as you grow older.

It’s time to listen in … to dive deep and be true.  The heart knows. 

Letting Go

Letting Go

I’ve written about this theme many times … it’s powerful that’s why.  Some say our human grasping is the root of all suffering and that if we just let go we would be fine!

Well I’m here to say that … I’ve let go of a lot of things, a home, a career, money, businesses, people, my marriage, and even ideas and beliefs.  And there are days I am still confronted with something I am still grasping onto a bit too tight.  And there are times when my mind still struggles with my heart and I suffer. 

Courage

Courage

Whew ... courage, what a word.  I was told by one of my amazing teachers once that the word courage actually radiates the highest vibration when it comes to connecting with the Divine.  That blew me away.  One of the most powerful virtues, she said.  Because it creates.  It creates the next thing based on your decision to make a decision that best suits your development, if you are present that is.

Love

Love

Sometimes love is obvious – like when you look at a newborn baby.  But sometimes it takes a hot little minute to get there. Sometimes you have to go through grief, anger, shame, or fear before love will reveal itself.  That’s when it gets really, really real.

Photo by Robert Sturman Photography

Widen Your Aperture

Widen Your Aperture

I’ve been looking inside, really tilling the soil, uniting with my tribes, marching, discerning, breathing, practicing, and living my life in a way that is awake as possible, as often as possible.

And honestly there are days that I still want to slap someone.  Not anyone in my immediate circle, or even my outside circle.  No, there’s an urge to slap just one, in particular person.  It’s crazy really.  There have been days when I visualize the moment so clearly it makes me laugh.  I don’t normally feel rage … or anger … or visions like this so it’s a bit off for me. 

Discernment

Discernment

How can we possibly discern what is true for us and beneficial for the evolution of our soul when we are bombarded by life?  And by bombarded I don’t mean that we’ve lost control some how.  I just mean … sometimes life moves at the speed of light and honestly, we start to move at that speed without knowing it and that’s not always the best thing.

Discernment is defined as the ability to judge well.

It's  a New Day

It's a New Day

I have had time to think ... to process ... to digest the amazing time we are living in right now.  And some of you may like this and some of you may not.  You may opt out to my newsletter after this but I do hope you do not.  Because we never know when some nugget will cross our path and honestly ... when we block out, drive out, or ignore that which we do not agree with, we are only creating more separation.  But you do what you need to do ... 

Unite

Unite

Ironically the word yoga actually means to unite… to yoke … to bring together.  I wrote about this word years ago.  The meaning hasn’t changed however, for some of us, this word is presently, very important to understand.

 

Unite … to bring body and breath together.
Unite … to match your thoughts, with your words and with your actions. 
Unite … to come together with Source, with others, with your Self. 
Unite … to come together for a common purpose or action.

It’s so important right now – this word.

 

Tilling the Soil

Tilling the Soil

I’ve been thinking a lot about this week’s theme and it’s been so powerful – the deeper meaning to all of … this.

It started at dance class the other day, when the teacher used the phrase, “till your soil.”  She invited us to pay attention to how we were “dancing” in our own space and what was coming up for us in that space.

This whole idea really resonated with me and it’s evolved all week long.  Especially with this Full Moon Cancer!  Talk about tilling the soil!

Just Three Simple Words

Just Three Simple Words

Just three simple words, that’s all it takes to seed your life and set it into motion. But what happens is, we are bombarded by so much more than three little words each day.

We veer off course because we allow our mind to go onto auto-pilot or over-drive listening to everything that’s “out there”. We co-mingle the beating of our own heart with the beating of another. We bump into other souls on their journey and ride-along their path for a while. Only to remember our own journey is what feeds our soul, not the path of another.

New Moon Blessings

New Moon Blessings

The December 2016 New Moon will take place on December 28th at 10:53PM PST. It will fall in the sign of Capricorn and pack energy that will need to go somewhere.  It’s time to start “seeing” things in a new way and expect the unexpected with the last New Moon of 2016.

Given that Capricorn is one of the most ambitious signs, many of us will start to get into a “get up and go mode”. However, it’s quite likely that many of us are still enjoying the holiday festivities and time away from work. We’re likely not going to use this “push” to do anything too strenuous given that Mars is now in Pisces either, dancing closely to Neptune.

Simplify to Amplify

Simplify to Amplify

I’ve been reviewing my life these last several weeks.  And not just the last year, like most may do.  No, with all the astrological orchestration we witnessed in 2016, I decided to go back about … oh … 8-9 years.

With this last Mercury Retrograde aligned with the Pluto Conjunction and the Winter Solstice, I decided to dig a little deeper. I thought it might be important and I was right.  Digging deep can be very enlightening to say the least.  It’s been a journey … these last 8 years … a flipping journey.  For me personally, I feel like my life has shifted 180 degrees and I don’t think I’m alone in that feeling.

Divine Vigilance

Divine Vigilance

This week has been a whirlwind – optimistically speaking of course.  So much happening isn’t there?  Some mornings I wake up so on edge, wondering what’s going to come down the “pipeline” of my life.  What type of “news” is going to pop up on my iPad (because I can’t figure out HOW to get that damn notification OFF!) that may or may not affect me.

The phrase “divine vigilance” came to me at the beginning of the week and as always, it has evolved in it’s meaning. 

Pray for Peace

Pray for Peace

I have to be honest and say that I have had a challenging time staying completely in the light these days. When I look outside myself, I witness such hypocrisy, negativity, affluenza, anesthetization, and violence. It can be debilitating for this mystic momma. I get this urge to run and quickly step back into the light; to tune everyone out, and put my rose colored glasses on and keep them on.

I haven't had this feeling in awhile and it’s very uncomfortable.

Gratitude

Gratitude

I write about gratitude a lot it seems.  Actually, it’s a great topic to revisit over and over again because in my humble opinion, it’s easy to forget to be grateful.  It’s easy to get caught up in the drama or mundane activities in life and forget to give thanks. 

And then of course there is the age old, “you cannot attract anything new into your life until you are grateful for what you already have.” 

Grounding In

Grounding In

Stability and security… what does it mean to you?

We are an interesting breed…we humans. Often we surround ourselves with things that make us feel secure in this ever- shifting world.

And we all do it… no one is exempt. We find a community to contribute to and lean on; a job to receive financial energy from; a home to root into and spread out our stuff in; a partner to ‘complete’ us, and material items to call our own.

Wake Up Call

Wake Up Call

Today, a monumental day; one that I honestly thought we would be celebrating the first female President and instead, I am immobilized and cannot even feel my own body. The tears won’t stop and anger wells up in my body.  And at the same time I am so full of love for my children that it’s all overwhelming.

11:11 Portal - Full Moon Taurus

11:11 Portal - Full Moon Taurus

I have to tell you that I love the number 11.  And in my life, I have always made pivotal turns in the month of November.  I never knew why until I started studying astrology and numerology. My “number” is 11… it’s a Master Number..

What does that mean?  Number 11?  The 11 is the most intuitive of all numbers. It is instinctual, charismatic, dynamic and capable when its sights are set on a concrete goal. The 11 is the number associated with faith and psychics. 

Passion

Passion

It reminds me of that time, in the Bible, when Moses came and parted the Red Sea.  You remember that right?  I remember the visual on our small television set … really great affects for way back then.  It was chaos, crazy-town, mayhem; and then whoosh, in one wave of Moses’ staff, the “bad” influence was swallowed up by the Sea.

But passion does that …