So interesting … this word clarity. Clarity of body, clarity of mind, clarity of speech, clarity of actions, clarity of heart. Which comes first? Well, I think it depends.
If we look at the density of our bodies, I might be inclined to say the body first. Then maybe the mind because, well, the energy in the mind is so fast paced and erratic. And then, the heart, because it’s infinite energy that holds, well everything.
The world is spinning so much faster these days isn’t it? It’s so easy to get caught up in the whirlwind of possibility, drama, experience, and energy of everyone else. That’s why a pause is necessary …. And often.
I sat with my teacher the other day and she said, “The path of a yogi is to remember to keep her prana in close.” Easier said than done sometimes, but doable nonetheless.
Such powerful, perfect, and potent wisdom.
Our life, the current situation(s) we find ourselves in, have been a result of our past choices. That’s truth. It fills my heart with compassion with I hear, “How did I get here? Why is this happening to me?” Or worse when the gaze is turned outward, “Because of this person, that situation, this energy … that’s why this is happening. Itcan’t possibly be because of me.”
Here’s the truth: Everything you are experiencing right now is a product of your past thoughts. And if you sit with that reality long enough, if you reflect deep enough … you will surrender to it.
I don’t know about you but I feel like I’m a pretty conscious person. I feel mostly “awake”. I feel like I can see things from a higher perspective, and recognize the Oneness in it all. And I also feel like there are days when I’m on a rollercoaster ride that is going too fast for my liking. And life is just whizzing by so quickly that there’s just not time to process it. No time to feel it … to inquire … to check in with our Highest Source for clarity.
This is when we pause.
We’ve all been there; a little out of integrity here, or there. And for whatever reason, we justify it. And always, and I mean always, the justification is based on some illusion we’ve created that makes no sense to our soul, but we believe it anyway. We try and make something up that will make our ego feel better.
But somewhere in our body, at some point in our life, we’ve ignored the message.
Venus Retrograde is, in my humble opinion, one of the most powerful times to regroup, realign and dive deeper into the heart than we think is possible. She’s all about relationships, intimate relationships; the ones we hold most dear – the ones that offer so much love, joy, angst, and reflection. She bears all so we can feel all.
And while she’s in retrograde we’ve experienced a Full Moon Virgo, a conjunction of the Sun, Mercury and Chiron with a drive by of Neptune, all in Pisces. Oh and Saturn just happens to be resting in Sagittarius squaring that conjunction with the Moon. Oh and, you know … Uranus is opposite Jupiter .. shaking things up just a bit.
I’ve written about this theme many times … it’s powerful that’s why. Some say our human grasping is the root of all suffering and that if we just let go we would be fine!
Well I’m here to say that … I’ve let go of a lot of things, a home, a career, money, businesses, people, my marriage, and even ideas and beliefs. And there are days I am still confronted with something I am still grasping onto a bit too tight. And there are times when my mind still struggles with my heart and I suffer.
Whew ... courage, what a word. I was told by one of my amazing teachers once that the word courage actually radiates the highest vibration when it comes to connecting with the Divine. That blew me away. One of the most powerful virtues, she said. Because it creates. It creates the next thing based on your decision to make a decision that best suits your development, if you are present that is.
Sometimes love is obvious – like when you look at a newborn baby. But sometimes it takes a hot little minute to get there. Sometimes you have to go through grief, anger, shame, or fear before love will reveal itself. That’s when it gets really, really real.
Photo by Robert Sturman Photography
I’ve been looking inside, really tilling the soil, uniting with my tribes, marching, discerning, breathing, practicing, and living my life in a way that is awake as possible, as often as possible.
And honestly there are days that I still want to slap someone. Not anyone in my immediate circle, or even my outside circle. No, there’s an urge to slap just one, in particular person. It’s crazy really. There have been days when I visualize the moment so clearly it makes me laugh. I don’t normally feel rage … or anger … or visions like this so it’s a bit off for me.
How can we possibly discern what is true for us and beneficial for the evolution of our soul when we are bombarded by life? And by bombarded I don’t mean that we’ve lost control some how. I just mean … sometimes life moves at the speed of light and honestly, we start to move at that speed without knowing it and that’s not always the best thing.
Discernment is defined as the ability to judge well.
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Ironically the word yoga actually means to unite… to yoke … to bring together. I wrote about this word years ago. The meaning hasn’t changed however, for some of us, this word is presently, very important to understand.
Unite … to bring body and breath together.
Unite … to match your thoughts, with your words and with your actions.
Unite … to come together with Source, with others, with your Self.
Unite … to come together for a common purpose or action.
It’s so important right now – this word.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this week’s theme and it’s been so powerful – the deeper meaning to all of … this.
It started at dance class the other day, when the teacher used the phrase, “till your soil.” She invited us to pay attention to how we were “dancing” in our own space and what was coming up for us in that space.
This whole idea really resonated with me and it’s evolved all week long. Especially with this Full Moon Cancer! Talk about tilling the soil!
Just three simple words, that’s all it takes to seed your life and set it into motion. But what happens is, we are bombarded by so much more than three little words each day.
We veer off course because we allow our mind to go onto auto-pilot or over-drive listening to everything that’s “out there”. We co-mingle the beating of our own heart with the beating of another. We bump into other souls on their journey and ride-along their path for a while. Only to remember our own journey is what feeds our soul, not the path of another.
The December 2016 New Moon will take place on December 28th at 10:53PM PST. It will fall in the sign of Capricorn and pack energy that will need to go somewhere. It’s time to start “seeing” things in a new way and expect the unexpected with the last New Moon of 2016.
Given that Capricorn is one of the most ambitious signs, many of us will start to get into a “get up and go mode”. However, it’s quite likely that many of us are still enjoying the holiday festivities and time away from work. We’re likely not going to use this “push” to do anything too strenuous given that Mars is now in Pisces either, dancing closely to Neptune.
I’ve been reviewing my life these last several weeks. And not just the last year, like most may do. No, with all the astrological orchestration we witnessed in 2016, I decided to go back about … oh … 8-9 years.
With this last Mercury Retrograde aligned with the Pluto Conjunction and the Winter Solstice, I decided to dig a little deeper. I thought it might be important and I was right. Digging deep can be very enlightening to say the least. It’s been a journey … these last 8 years … a flipping journey. For me personally, I feel like my life has shifted 180 degrees and I don’t think I’m alone in that feeling.
This week has been a whirlwind – optimistically speaking of course. So much happening isn’t there? Some mornings I wake up so on edge, wondering what’s going to come down the “pipeline” of my life. What type of “news” is going to pop up on my iPad (because I can’t figure out HOW to get that damn notification OFF!) that may or may not affect me.
The phrase “divine vigilance” came to me at the beginning of the week and as always, it has evolved in it’s meaning.
I have to be honest and say that I have had a challenging time staying completely in the light these days. When I look outside myself, I witness such hypocrisy, negativity, affluenza, anesthetization, and violence. It can be debilitating for this mystic momma. I get this urge to run and quickly step back into the light; to tune everyone out, and put my rose colored glasses on and keep them on.
I haven't had this feeling in awhile and it’s very uncomfortable.
I write about gratitude a lot it seems. Actually, it’s a great topic to revisit over and over again because in my humble opinion, it’s easy to forget to be grateful. It’s easy to get caught up in the drama or mundane activities in life and forget to give thanks.
And then of course there is the age old, “you cannot attract anything new into your life until you are grateful for what you already have.”